I have set myself some goals for the upcoming months. I am going to run a 10km in May, and am debating a half marathon (limited funding has prevented me from registering yet). I will also lose 15lbs before this summer but eating healthy and treating my body with respect and love. I am often a self sabotaged and am almost making these goals as a way to attempt to STOP this behaviour - I deserve to be awesome and accomplish everything I want to, so here it goes! By making these basic fitness/health goals public I am making myself more accountable :)
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My brother being born!
Men are rats, listen to me, they’re fleas on rats, worse than that, they’re amoebas on fleas on rats. I mean, they’re too low for even the dogs to bite. The only man a girl can depend on is her daddy.
It seems many women are losing faith in the male gender. Myself included. Where are all the good ones? Definitely not on the dance floor of a bar on a Saturday night. I don’t understand what happened to chivalry - somewhere in the last century it has dwindled and is now in limited supply. There seems to be an endless supply of ‘boys’ who have this delusion that a couple drinks and some half-assed compliments will get them “lucky”; not so much loser. What happened to getting to know someone? Having meaningful conversations? Developing a relationship that is not 98% physical. I want to date someone that will become my best friend. Someone that I have an emotional attachment to, and someone that I can love. I also do not want to have to act like an idiot around a guy. I am a smart person…get over it, and over yourself. Am I a feminist? I don’t think so. I want to have someone that can take care of me, but I also want to have someone to take care of. Cooking is no fun for one. I like the idea of a “traditional” relationship, the romance is compelling. But I am also not delusional, I know that nobody is perfect.
I guess as I get older I am becoming more aware of the double standard that exists between genders with regards to relationships and sexuality. Men seem to be able to go out and be completely unattached, emotionless, robots that ‘play the field’, where as when women attempt the same behaviour, portraying their inner ‘Samantha’, they are degraded and called promiscuous. Why is this still an issue? Like, haven’t we moved beyond this? But what I find more troubling then being labelled for actions is the portrayal of men as emotionless - like who doesn’t want to be genuinely loved? That is the most basic human emotion! Why are guys so afraid to show it? Or to look for it? Or to even admit they want it? I guess I’ll just never be the type of girl that finds spending time with strangers a desirable way to spend a Saturday night.
Chaos. I thrive on it. I am currently a graduate student in civil engineering with research focused on saving the plant (like everyone else, right?). Who knows where I’ll be in a year, let alone 6 months. The world to me right not is an uncertain place that holds the potential for an adventure, but scares me. I have the best friends someone could ask for, a family that is stronger then anyone I’ve ever known, and a self-worth that is unwavering. Yet, I am insecure. Why does the world make me feel this way? Why do I doubt my intelligence, beauty and kindness regularly? Society tells me there is something wrong with me because maybe I don’t fit a cookie cutter mould, but I am realizing (slowly but surely) that I love me. This is a blog to share my outlook on life with the world…one sentence at a time.